I feel the blood pumping into my veins ; covering all the spaces under my skin.

I feel my heartbeats.. and once again it is starting to hurt.. there is something in my throat

withholds me from speaking ,tears are falling on my white cold cheeks.. can't hold

them.. it's something beyond my power..

i am alone.. in my room,on my bed, enclosed by my mind.

In my head there are messy thoughts.

weird,

strange,

questions..

I've been searching for answers.i tried to ask but nothing quenched my thirst.

I'm lost..i'm lonely..my world is falling apart..

"all i need is music" that's what i try to convince myself of everyday.

while i try to make myself feel better..problems fall upon my head crushing me again

making me fall,cry,die inside..i want to smile again,just laugh again from the bottom of my

heart one more time..

i'm sad in a gloomy world ..

jumping from a thought to another .. unable to concentrate on one single idea.

.....once again i'm lost...

sarah©